Magical headphones for late night soothing
It's not that late, but I've already gone to bed and tossed and turned enough to make me give up and just get back up. Phoebe is keeping me company by sleeping in her basket next to me.
I needed music. In order not to wake my sleeping hubby in the room across the hall, I pulled down my old headphones and plugged them in to my computer speakers. They're nice noise-cancelling headphones that I borrowed from my parents' house when I went to college and never gave back. The leatherette that covers the padding is flaking off, so I don't feel like my parents would really want them back at this point.
It's refreshing to blare a little Ben Folds Five directly into my brain without having external noise. I've been using the standard earbuds that came with my iPod at work (I don't listen loud enough to really block out much office noise) and when I listen at home, I just use my regular speakers. These old, flaky headphones really make me feel the music up close, without other distraction (even white noise distraction of an early morning sleeping house).
It wasn't so long ago that I would put a CD in my stereo, lie down on the floor and lose myself for an hour while listening to music through these headphones. In my bedroom at my parents' house, in various dorm rooms and college apartments, in the living room of my first apartment with Ben. I think more often than not, I came closer to finding myself while losing myself to the music.
So tonight, this rare headphone experience is just the kind of magical calming treatment I need to help me settle down and maybe get some sleep. I'm tired, but I know that my eyes need to feel heavier before I try lying down in bed again. Maybe I'll just sit back and listen to music until the crap that's causing my late night anxiety goes away.
And maybe I'll listen to music through these magical headphones more often.
